Can I have some?

welcome to my blog.

a place to post. a place to eat oreos. a place to vent. a place to heal.

i started this blog so i could use a different outlet besides munching on fattening oreos. as if that has done any good... *mind wanders to oreo package in the house...*

then i realized that oreos can be semi symbolic. if you are are that crazy about oreos that is. which... i am.

eating oreos is therapeutic for me. when i am struggling or when i need a pick me up. they have chocolate. and sugar. both of which help lift my mood. not to mention that i eat them soaked with milk, which is my miracle drink.

i post my posts to not only get stuff out. there may be people who read my blog who have been in the same kind of situations as i have. i hope reading them and knowing that others have gone through things like i have, will be to you what eating oreos does to me.

and yes. i didn't capitalize anything in here. i just felt like it. deal with it.

munch up.

Saturday, June 28, 2008


Well, Bug is in bed now for his nap time. Every nap or bed time we deal with I usually have to wander around the house for Bug's lovey. His pillow. Not something I would have assumed he would cling to, but there you have it. This particular nap time Rocket Scientist and I couldn't find his pillow anywhere. Rocket Scientist went outside to throw a possibly poopy diaper out in the dumpster, and as I was looking for the pillow, Bug started to walk out of his room. I gave him my stern voice "Get back in bed now!" Well, he did turn back around, but he was crying as well. One of the setbacks of using discipline. The heart ache (yours and your child's) that comes with it. While he was sobbing I heard him say something that could be interpreted as "But, my pillow...". Ouch. Another ache of the heart. I responded by saying, "I'm looking for it Bug, but you need to stay in bed."

Eventually Rocket Scientist came back in while Bug was still crying, but faithfully staying in his room, and I felt so bad for hurting him, that I thought I'd reconcile him. I head in there to give him a hug, and he asks to sit in the rocking chair. I concede even though I know I will only rock back only 2 or 3 times before he is fine. Maybe even less. Don't ask me why, but that is all it takes, yet it is still a necessity to making up. I digress... so after about 2 rocks he sees the sunblock on Rocket Scientist's computer and points it out to me with the word "ehblock". I say, "Yup, it is the sunblock". Then he starts pointing to the door and saying pillow. I hesitate... did he put the pillow outside??? I open the door. There it is. I tell him to go get it and then we put him in bed all hurts mended.

Now if I felt bad for making him cry after I scolded him, I felt even worse after we found the pillow. He was probably trying to let me know where it was. Anyway, I don't know if you are even interested in this story, but there you have it. It is typed and out for publication.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Bugisms: 2

One day I was attempting to open a jam container for lunch (the usual peanut butter and jelly) and I finally got it open. I raised my arms in triumph and Bug raised his arms as well while saying, "Hurray!!! You did it!!!" Now he says it for pretty much anything. I got out of the bathroom (after a pretty long and hard #2 session) and he said "Hurray! You did it!!!" I felt the same myself. :)

Friday, June 20, 2008

Randomness... well, more like Mary Kay

So, it has been a while... sorry 'bout that. We have been having some pretty crazy days. I'm glad it is finally warming up here, and me and Bug really do enjoy the sunlight.

I have been wanting to post for a while, but I wasn't really all that sure what to write, and I have been wanting to put up pictures and videos, but my computer is so full of pictures that I need to empty them onto a CD or something before I put more on. So as lame as it is, that is pretty much my excuse for my silence.

I'm not even really sure what I'm to write, but I'll just ramble for a bit and see if a subject comes up. I vacuumed today, and by the time I got to the last room in the house (there are only 3 with carpet and one hallway) my back started hurting. Sad huh? I rested after that anyway, and took Bug outside to play while I sat and talked or rather listened to the other mothers outside while I tried to sleep on the uncomfortable camping chair.

I also recently became a Mary Kay consultant. A friend in my ward became one about 3 weeks ago or so and she was really hyped about it. I hosted a party for her to kind of help off to a good start, though it wasn't one of the best parties. In fact, I'm not even sure if it really counted as a party. Anyway, and she was begging me to join her in the company and I was kind of hesitant since I was already a consultant for Close To My Heart. Besides, the starter kit price was (and is) $100 and I really didn't have that kind of money, and still don't. She invited me to a dinner at Hamilton's with the Mary Kay consultants, and I thought "free food!" so we went. After this time I had listened to the survey line with Rocket Scientist and found out that Mary Kay consultants get 50% commission and are able to win cars.... Close To My Heart doesn't do that... in any case, I was more interested, but still hesitant with the $100 dollar fee. And plus as weird as it may seem, I am afraid to change. I want to change, yet be the same as I am now. Doesn't make sense huh? I know I need to do better, and want to do better, but don't want to put any effort into it.... crazy logic I know.

One of the things that Mary Kay really talks up is that they aren't out there to just sell product. They are out there to help other women see the potential in themselves and to gain more self-confidence. Which I believe most women are lacking. So that was another barrier to me signing up. I wasn't really expecting that going to the dinner would sign me up, or even change anything. I just wanted the free (really good) food. Even though I twisted my ankle that night, we went. Rocket Scientist and I got a babysitter for Bug and headed off. We enjoyed dinner, and then the Cadillac Sales Director came up to talk to us. She once again told us all about the benefits of being a Mary Kay consultant, and then she had a drawing. Before that we all filled out a survey about how we felt about becoming a consultant and all that. I didn't win that drawing, but then I found out that they were going to have another drawing that night. If I signed up they would draw (that night with only like 25 people present almost half of them women) for a free starter kit. Rocket Scientist whispered in my ear that if I wanted to start up, he was Ok with it, and I thought that among these women, how many are actually going to sign up? I had the ability to win a free starter kit, and the odds were pretty good. I started to fill out the paper. The drawing took place (with only like 5 entrants) and it turns out that I won. Great huh!!! In any case, I am now a consultant for Mary Kay, and hope to do well. One of my first goals is to win a car because if you know us, our car is FALLING APART!!! It is a Honda so the engine is just fine. Just the sun roof, AC, electric windows, and anything else you can think of dealing with inside the car is falling apart.

Another cool thing with Mary Kay is that if any of you women reading this want to host a party (in June), eight of your friends come to it, the party gets to $500 dollars in sales, and one of your friends hosts their own party, YOU WIN A CRUISE TO THE BAHAMAS!!! I'm going to try to not turn this blog into a "buy my Mary Kay stuff" blog, but the excitement is running through me and it is kind of a part of my life now (like Little Angel dieing) and I'm going to talk about it! :) I'm going to try to not sound boring or over-talk it, but still... it is a part of my life, and that is that! ;)

I guess my post is getting really long, so I'll end right here. We are doing fine for all you family who are far away and might be wondering, and I hope you are all doing well too. :)

Oh, one more thing, Rocket Scientist is trying to get a job at Quest. They will pay for his tuition and books, and maybe even more then that. The health insurance and other benefits are great as well though I don't know a whole lot more about them, but in any case, we are really hoping that he gets this job, and we would appreciate any prayers in our behalf from you all. Thanks a ton!

(I added the last part of the title after I wrote all this)

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Bugisms: 1

So, this cracked me up, and I hope you enjoy it just as much.

I was sitting here at my computer, and then I farted, pretty loud I must say. Bug looked up at me and said "Change?" I'm laughing already... literally. If you didn't get it, he was asking me if I needed a diaper change. Boy sometimes this kid just cracks me up. Hopefully I'll remember to post them to you all, so you can have a laugh as well. :)

Bach Symphony No. 5

You all know what it sounds like... (sol sol sol doooooo sol sol sol dooooooo) Well, thanks to Little Einsteins, Bug now says, "Uh oh" after every sol sol sol dooooo. Why? Well, in one of the Little Einsteins episodes, they are playing out the storyline of Jack and the Beanstalk. The mission is to save the golden goose from the forte giants castle. The forte giant just happens to sound like this......sol sol sol doooooo! Every time the Little Einsteins hear that they say "Uh oh" or some other sort of exclamation. Now every time Bug hears that sol sol sol doooo (there is some sort of musical word for this, but I can't think of it...) be it with the Little Einsteins or from the play-list I have on my computer, he says, "Uh oh!!!" I think it is pretty cute. :)

There are times when I'm listening to that piece when he is in bed, and when I do, I almost have to say "Uh oh" myself because it is kind of part of the song now... :)

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Walmart (and back) or bust!!!

Despite the title, I agree with my sister about Walmart. Especially the one where I'm at. WAY overloaded. In any case, here is my story...

I have started walking with a friend in my ward around the neighborhood and talking, and getting exercise. Today she calls me up and asks if I want to walk to Walmart with her. I hesitate, thinking about it. I remembered that to have the dinner we have scheduled for today, I do need to go to the store, and I have been trying to loose weight.... hmmm I wondered... could I really make it to Walmart and back with a 2 year old? We headed off.

For those of you who know me, my house is on a hill. Walmart isn't considerably far away, but enough that you need to really think before you take off walking to it. We left around 10:30ish. We got home (finally!!!!) around 1:30ish stopping at another store while we were down there. My legs are aching, but I have a little sense of exhilaration. I DID IT!!! I wasn't really sure how it would turn out, but I'm home, and made it. Yay!!! There were a few exciting happenings during the trek, yes, it WAS a trek, and I'll expound on those now.

First "thrill": my friend had two kids with her. A three year old and a hmmm maybe 18-20 month old. When we got to Walmart, I felt kind of silly walking around with a stroller rather then a cart, but no one looked at us particularly funny, which I'm grateful for. I checked out, and met my friend near the bathroom because of a diaper change. While I waited for her, I realized that I don't have a diaper... thankfully it wasn't needed. The excitement comes after she comes out. She hadn't checked out yet, and she needed to find something in the gardening section and get her glasses looked at. So I sat there with a three year old, Bug (2), and a 20 month old (or how ever old he is...). It started out fine, then her younger one started whining and wanting to go find his mommy, and her 3 year old "wants to go look at something". I had her youngest in my arms, and she was trying to take off. Of course, once she started walking around, Bug did too. It is just a thing kids do, copy each other particularly if they shouldn't be doing it. Don't ask me why, and if you find a solution... let me know. :) She finally came back, and then needed to gather up her stuff to check out. She threatened her older child to not give her the goldfish crackers back unless she stayed in the stroller. She left to check out and thankfully, it wasn't as hectic.

Second "thrill": This one only really makes sense if you know the particular Walmart I'm talking about. But I'll try to explain it anyway. There is a back way to pull in to the Walmart, and a lot of people take it. We needed to cross, but the problem was that there was a turn in the road (where we were trying to cross) it is pretty narrow for even two cars, and there was a bunch of who knows what blocking our way so we couldn't see if there was a car coming. We could see behind us with that line of traffic, but the other one, we kind of had to guess, but yet stay back far enough so cars could see us before they hit us, and after they made the turn. Scary... we made it out fine though :)

Third "thrill": Hiking back up the hill is thrill enough. We probably had to stop to rest 3 or 4 times once the slope got pretty steep. And every time we stopped, my friends kids wanted to get out. Thankfully for both of us, Bug seemed pretty well behaved the whole time. Near the top (we could see the level ground again, but were still climbing) we were stopped again, and her youngest managed to get out. At this point, her 3 year old was already out and walking. We were hoping that she would get tired and want to get in, but she didn't. I think she had given up by now keeping them in, but when her youngest started walking toward the road, she jumped for him, letting go of the stroller. It started to roll down-hill, and I went for it. I grabbed it, then turned around to get mine. I was ahead of her stroller, so I was able to get both. Thankfully none of her kids were in at the time, and thankfully I could grab it in time. I wasn't about to go back down and up again. After that she forced them back in the stroller and we went on our way. Right at the top of the hill was our apartments. Whew... we won't be doing that again for at least a week. :)