Can I have some?

welcome to my blog.

a place to post. a place to eat oreos. a place to vent. a place to heal.

i started this blog so i could use a different outlet besides munching on fattening oreos. as if that has done any good... *mind wanders to oreo package in the house...*

then i realized that oreos can be semi symbolic. if you are are that crazy about oreos that is. which... i am.

eating oreos is therapeutic for me. when i am struggling or when i need a pick me up. they have chocolate. and sugar. both of which help lift my mood. not to mention that i eat them soaked with milk, which is my miracle drink.

i post my posts to not only get stuff out. there may be people who read my blog who have been in the same kind of situations as i have. i hope reading them and knowing that others have gone through things like i have, will be to you what eating oreos does to me.

and yes. i didn't capitalize anything in here. i just felt like it. deal with it.

munch up.

Monday, December 31, 2007


Well, the Christmas light poll is done. I'll have the results for anyone interested up for another couple of days, but just 'cause I'm interested, what sort of things would you like me to put up for another poll? Or if you don't want one. Let me know through comments (or e-mail for those who know me) what your opinions are about the poll and what sort of things you would like to have a poll for.


Friday, December 28, 2007

Christmas Greetings

Hello all once again! I know I have been kind of silent for the past little bit, but I wasn't quite sure what to write about. I have a wonderful husband, the cutest little son, and a wonderful family who has been way supportive in this dark time of my life. What more could I ask for? But I have written that already, so I just wasn't sure what to write. Here I go off on a tangent though, I was going to tell you all about my Christmas!

Visiting family like we are, we are not sleeping in our own beds. We spent most of the time with Rocket Scientist's family, and woke up Christmas morning at their house. My family had the opportunity to call my brother on his mission that day and our time that was set apart for it was between nine and ten. So, we woke up really early at Rocket Scientist's parents' and basically forced Bug to open all his presents as fast as he could go. He had a lot! We really would have had a great Christmas without the help from whoever it was who played Santa for us this year. After that we forced down a breakfast as fast as we could go, and rushed out the door without even remembering to take any presents for Bug with us (we were going to stay a couple of days with my family cause Rocket Scientist's family was going to visit his grandparents). We got to my parent's house in enough time to catch the phone call, and were very grateful for that. Bug did fall asleep on the way (the houses are only about 45 min. away...) though, we must have really ruined his beauty sleep.

Bug really had a fun time playing with his cousins that he doesn't get to see very often, and we really had a great Christmas. My sister even called from her long distance from us to make sure I was doing all right. We had a nice conversation and enjoyed being able to talk to each other for a little bit. I really miss her and her family.

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!

Monday, December 17, 2007

Santa came early

As I was waiting tonight for my sister to come by so we could go shopping for a new outfit (thanks so much to my two wonderful sisters!), I was fooling around on the computer waiting for that knock. Eventually I heard a knock, and expected to see her as I opened the door, but found someone I never saw before carrying a big red bag. We had been suprized to find out that the bag was filled with presents for us and for Bug.

I have heard stories of this happening to someone (my brother had this happen for him during a hard Christmas-time in his family), but I just never thought it would happen to us. We are well taken care of and are really grateful for all that we have been given and all the love we have been shown during this hard time.

A big thanks once again for all those who are thinking of us!

Thank yous

In this dark time of my life, with having to be basically on bed rest before the birth, the birth itself, the struggles I have had with breastfeeding, and then the death of my little one, I want to thank you all for being so supportive. I love you all, yes even the ones I don't know. Trust me, I love you all so much, and want the best for you as my spirit brothers and sisters. Being able to write my thoughts down and know that loved ones are reading, understanding, morning, and thinking of me has helped a lot.

So, a big thanks to all you out there who are thinking and praying for us. We can feel your prayers, and love from wherever you are. I just hope that I can repay you all someday. I appreciate everything that you have done, and how much support we have been given. It means so much to know that people are thinking of us and praying. We are doing all right. Don't worry too much about us, because we know that Little Angel is in a better place, and that he is doing the work of the Lord and enjoying every minute of it. Just knowing that makes everything all right. We miss him terribly, but look forward to meeting him again and raising him during the millennium. I only hope that I can be as faithful and be ready when that day comes so I will be able to.

Thank you all once again. I love you all so much!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

If you can't say something nice......

I would ask all of you to not comment negatively. The old saying is still applicable today, "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all". I can also put in here the "Golden Rule" and ask, would you like to be told something like that when you are grieving and trying to find any ray of light?

I am moderating the comments now, though I wish I didn't have too. If you choose to comment negatively, it will not be posted. Please don't, and save me the pain of reading them.

Good and Bad news

Well, I'll give you the bad news first. Little Angel died yesterday of SIDS. We are quite devastated without our little bundle of joy. We are really grateful for our wonderful ward and family who have been a great support to us. We have been really blessed to be in such a wonderful ward and have such wonderful friends who are so willing to help with anything and everything.

Now as for the good news. It is actually kind of bitter/sweet, but I don't like to look at the bitter. I got a rocker! You know those chairs that are rocking chairs but not really cause they are more safe for little fingers? That is what I got! We found it at DI, and it was only $15! They are pretty pricey things, and we got one for only $15!!!!! Another plus, it is in GREAT shape! The only thing that is needing repairs is the fabric. It is way comfortable, and doesn't even squeak! Here is a picture!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Clean home

This will be short, but....

I have a clean living room!!

Bug helped me and Rocket Scientist clean up all the dirty clothes and toys! We can finally walk around without wondering what we are stepping on! If only Bug could help with the dishes...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Little Angel..........scroogeified??

Ok, he really isn't a scrooge, but the rest of us smile for pictures, and it just didn't look right.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Snow flakes

Well, today was the very first day that I saw snow flakes. Don't believe me? Well let me go into my story...

As I started walking home from church today, I noticed right off the bat that it was snowing. Lightly snowing, but snowing nevertheless. Now don't get me wrong, I have seen snow fall from the sky, I am not deprived as that! My mom makes tats the prettiest snowflakes (if any of you reading this don't know me, I pity the fact that you can't see these beautiful things!)!! The closest I can get to explaining what my mom's snowflakes look like are those paper snowflakes that you make by folding up a paper and cutting designs in it.

In any case, I had only known those two kinds of snowflakes. I had never in my life actually seen a snowflake like that. I was shocked when I first walked into the snow today on the way home to see that something that looked like snow, yet shaped like a star was falling on the stroller! I actually had a brief moment when I thought that it must be the scenery people dropping fake snow in my movie. And in a way I guess that just might be true. But only the best artist made those flakes, and the most thoughtful of directors decided to through them out at me today. I even caught one on my tongue I was so excited about them. Rocket Scientist and everyone that I talked to on the way home thought I was crazy I guess, but I had truly and honestly not seen snowflakes. So delicate and beautiful, I was looking at my gloves, coat, stroller, and anything else dark enough to see them the whole way home. Go ahead, call me crazy, but if it weren't for these few times when we really appreciate nature and the beautiful world God made for us, I'm sure I would really go crazy!

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Game Over

I got this in an e-mail today, thought I'd share it with you all. If you can't see the words very well, you can click on it, and it will show you a closer picture.

Even though me and Rocket Scientist aren't there yet, it sure feels like it. We aren't far from it though...

Enjoy!!!! :)

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Bug's cute thing for the day

Bug's cute thing for the day is neat. Mainly because Rocket Scientist was around to see it too, which doesn't normally happen.

When we came back from Thanksgiving break, Bug was fighting having a diaper change still. But eventually, namely in these past couple of days, he would lay down on the changing pad once I had it layed out. It suprized me at first, but then I got used to it. Rocket Scientist was about to change Little Angel's diaper earlier today in the one and only break (much too short in my opinion...), and in getting ready for it, he layed out the changing pad. Soon after, Bug came up and layed down on it. Rocket Scientist had never seen that before, and I hadn't told him about it yet either, so he was stumped. I just asked Bug if he needed a diaper change, and he rubbed his chest (the sign for "please"). That was the first time he had done that, and we both started laughing. Naturally, Rocket Scientist changed Bug first. Too cute!

Monday, December 3, 2007

My fam, elfified

I know, I know, this is my third post today, but I thought I'd share this with everyone (you'll enjoy this I think Exelente!).

Motherhood Tag

1. How long have you been a MOTHER? ~2 1/2 years
2. How many kids call you mommy? ~1 can say it, 1 who is still too young.
3. When you were pregnant did you know what you were having? ~Yes.
4. How old were you when you became a mom? ~20
5. How long were you in labor? ~Around 8 hours with Bug, and around 6 hours with Little Angel.
6. What's your favorite thing about being a mom? ~Enjoying those cute moments like the one I posted earlier. Well, all of them, but mainly the ones that let you know that you are teaching them right, and they are actually learning them.
7. What's your least favorite thing? ~Having those little battles with Bug (he is really trying to test us with his limits), and not knowing how to help Little Angel when he needs something. I hate not knowing what to do when it comes to calming my son down.
8. Do you want more kids? ~Of course!
9. Have you ever taken your kid(s) on a trip? ~We go down to visit our families frequently, but nothing big. We did go to Colorado when I was pregnant with Bug, but since we've had them, the farthest we have gone is Tropic. (down by Bryce Canyon National Park)
10. How many times have you been peed on? ~More than once, but I really don't remember how many
11. How many times have you been barfed on? ~Two stand out, but there might have been more. One went all the way down me since I was standing, and Bug was also bawling cause he just smashed his finger. I wasn't sure what to do, clean up myself and the floor, or calm Bug down (Rocket Scientist was gone at the time). The other one was just into my hands, but I was pregnant and just about barfed myself. Thankfully, Rocket Scientist was around that time to help me.
12. Are your kids named after someone? ~Bug's middle name is after Rocket Scientist's middle name, and Little Angel is the fifth one, so... well you do the math. His first name.....probably not. Little Angel's middle name is Rocket Scientist's first name, naturally after my wonderful hubby. As with Bug, Little Angel's first isn't after anyone we know.
13. When is the last time you had a sitter; What did you do? ~Thanksgiving, we went to Wal-mart...yeah, sad huh?
14. When your kids gets in trouble, who is the bad guy? ~Me I guess. Sometimes Rocket Scientist does, but a lot of the time his disciplining doesn't jive with mine.
15. What is the longest you have been away from your kid(s)? ~A couple of hours. Since Little Angel was born, I've been tied to him, so on the rare occasion we get away, it isn't for very long.
16. Are your toes painted right now? ~Nope, but I didn't do that normally anyway.
17. Last movie you saw in theater? ~I have no idea.
18. One thing you will not give up just because you're a mom: ~Probably handwork. I love to cross-stitch and knit.
19. One thing you did give up now that you're a mom? ~Trumpeting. I really miss performing, but I do ant to find some group I can be in. I really want to be in the Orchestra at Temple Square, but that is still up in the air.
20. Favorite Cartoon: ~Little Einsteins
21. Favorite Snack: ~Fruit Snacks
22. When the kid(s) are napping, you are: ~Either napping too, blogging, or housework.
23. Where is/are your kid(s) now? ~One is in my arms (I'm typing one handed...), the other is following Rocket Scientist around (it was amazing how quickly Bug turned onto a daddy's boy after Little Angel was born).
24. If I could do it over, I'd do this differently: ~ Be more patient, and spend more quality time with Bug. I worried too much about housework and didn't spend enough with Bug.

Now your it!

Today's cute thing of the day

I know I don't write a cute thing Bug did everyday, and thank goodness! You would probably get tired of this blog! But I thought I'd write one (because he does many) cute thing he did today.

Last year my mom gave her children little nativity scenes made my Fisher-Price for the grandkids to play with. Bug wasn't too into it then, and still doesn't really seem to understand the set-up, but today he was playing with some of the characters. An angel and baby Jesus to be precise. While he was playing with them, he touched the angel's face to baby Jesus' face and made a kissing sound. I was startled, but had a heart softening moment. It was way cute. I am suprized frequently at how much he does understand.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Red-Nosed Bug

Bug did this all on his own, and by the time we had batteries in the camera, Bug wasn't doing it any more so Rocket Scientist had to help him get back in the mood. What they are using as a "red nose" is Fisher-Price cupcake frostings. We took a whole lot more pictures that are all way cute. If you want to see them, let me know, and I will invite you to see my web album. So cute!! How do kids think up these things anyway??

Sometimes I just can't believe just how cute Bug is! It is even hard sometimes to be mad at him, or to discipline him. We are trying to teach him that he doesn't always get his way. He had it like that up until we noticed that we were spoiling him a little, and now we are trying to quash it, but he is sure giving a good fight!

Anyway, that isn't the subject of this post, but it is the cuteness of my Red-Nosed Bugerboo. Hope you enjoy the pictures, let me know if you want to see more of them! There really are too many cute ones, I had a hard time narrowing these down. Enjoy! Or don't, it is up to you! :)

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Thanksgiving Thanks

I know I'm kind of late with this, but I thought I'd write down the many things I am grateful for. Not in any particular order.
  • My wonderfully wonderful husband who is truly amazing.
  • My two adorable children who mean so much to me.
  • The gospel in my life and all that that entails - the scriptures, praying, the atonement, gathering together to worship as brothers and sisters, and many more aspects. I would be so lost without it.
  • My wonderful family who brought me up with the gospel.
  • Trials. Why you may ask? The greater the trial, the greater the peace after you endure and get through the trial. And I love to help people and what better way then to help them through the same trials?
  • I am grateful that Tuesdays and Thursdays are what they are instead of Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Tuesdays and Thursdays are the days when Rocket Scientist is gone basically all day. He doesn't get home until 10:30ish at night. And he comes home for dinner, but that is it. It isn't even a very long break for dinner. In any case, I'm grateful that it is only twice a week instead of three times a week.
  • My wonderful ward, and the friends I have made in it. One in particular, though sadly, she is moving soon for her husband is graduating after the semester is over. And we just started our friendship, but I am extremely grateful for her. If not for Mindy, I might not have made it through these last few weeks.
  • Christmas. Can you think of any other time where the world is literally brighter?
  • All my many temporal blessings. I may not have as much as some of you, but I have a whole lot more then others in the world.
Well, that is what I could think of, though there are many more. Here's a big shout out to all the many people who are such a blessing in my life! Thank you!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007


I am so proud of myself today that I decided to write to tell you all. Today was the first time (maybe second) when our table was fully wiped down since Little Angel was born, and I have the Christmas runner on it! Also, our entertainment center doesn't have any things on it that aren't decorations, and I painted a whole lot of blocks for Bug's Christmas present (with the help of RA). I have also cleared out the sink, and ready to do more. Our front room (or living room, or family room, whatever you want to call it) and kitchen is actually bearable to look at! Give myself a pat on the back! Hope your days were as successful as mine, and that you feel good about what you did today!

Friday, November 23, 2007


Bonjour!! (that means hello formally)

Well, (Bon...) I am (je suis) learning (.....) French! (fran├žais)

Don't worry though, I'm not going to type like that this whole time. I just thought it would be fun to learn how to speak a different language. Everyone (most everyone) starts with Spanish, and my brother told me I couldn't pronounce the words properly, so I decided to start with French! Anyway, that is what's going on! Talk to you later!

Salut! (bye or hi.... informal)

Monday, November 19, 2007

Prefered Pain?

Who would prefer pain? Sounds a little crazy huh?

Well, when I was giving birth to Bug, I wasn't quite sure what to expect, and I had an open mind when it came to an epidural or not. I wasn't quite ready for the pain and ended up asking for an epidural. Once it started working, I really couldn't feel the rest of the birth, and Bug came out in 20 min.

While I was pregnant with Little Angel, I was thinking that I wanted to have a "natural" birth, but wasn't sure if I would be ready for it on this one. I did start meditating a week before, not with the thought of using it to get through pain, but for other reasons. Some people use meditation to get through pain I knew, but I didn't start for that reason, I figured I started too soon to actually use it for that amount of pain.

So I went into the birth process with my mind still open about the epidural. Though I hadn't started meditating for dealing with the pain of giving birth, I thought it couldn't hurt. When the pain got to be so much that I couldn't ignore it with I Love Lucy episodes (or M*A*S*H or the Andy Griffith Show all of which were playing on TV Land when I was in labor), I started to do what I did when I meditate, close my eyes, and just concentrate on my breathing. That seemed to help a little, so I kept it up. But once again, the pain got too much for my feeble attempts to ignore it. Little Angel came 30 min. later. Don't ask me how I got through that longest half hour in my life, but I did without an epidural. By then it was pretty much too late for it to take much of an effect. Rocket Scientist did help by reminding me to think about Bug's adorable cuteness, and think of other things that took me somewhere else then the pain.

In any case, I look back at Little Angel's birth with more fondness then I do Bug's. Why is that? I'm not exactly sure. Maybe because I went through the pain, and the trial of it and made it. Maybe it was something different. I'm not really sure, but I do know that I look back at it and seem to enjoy the memory of Little Angel's more then Bug's. Trails aren't necessarily fun things to go through, but when you are through them is when the true joy comes.

Friday, November 16, 2007

I'm number 10!!

I talked to Sandy today. Sandy is my lactation consultant from WIC. We talked about many things that I had questions about, but I won't go into that. The main thing that she did was give me a huge emotional boost. I have been having a hard time getting through each feeding with Little Angel because of the struggles that we have been having. I started to dread when he would need to eat again.

Anyway, before I go off on a tangent (I have done that a lot today...), one thing that Sandy told me today is that 9 out of 10 women would have given up on breastfeeding with all the things we have gone through these last few weeks. She said that she knows that because she has talked to the other nine. Then she said I was her number 10. I have had a better day then I have had since Little Angel was born because I was so elated with her praise. I mean it is one thing to have my sisters or mom say that I'm doing a good job, but with my mind, I can brush that away really easy thinking that they just say that because they love me, or whatever. Sandy is nice, but I doubt that she loves me, and she isn't part of my immediate family, so it is totally different then having my family tell me I'm doing good. I do need the praise from my family, everyone does, but it was easier to brush it off (having a depressing mood and everything) then it was from someone totally unrealated.

So, normally you would think you would want to be number one? I'm just glad that I'm number ten, and all the help I have had from my Father in Heaven and my friends and family who have helped me through this hard time. I hope that it will be getting better and better throughout the next little bit.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Which is which?

Well, here they both are. Which one is Little Angel, and which one is Bug? Who knows?

I wanted to find two pictures where they were doing basically the same thing, but I couldn't. This is the closest I could get with them in basically the same pose. Anyone know who is who??

I am constantly suprized at how I get the feeling that I'm holding Bug, when it is really Little Angel. They are really look a lot like each other. Makes me wonder how Little Angel will look in later years, will he look almost the same as Bug? I can't wait to compare pictures of them both walking or something.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I love yous

The other day (I've been so busy with new baby things) I said good night to Bug. I gave him a kiss, started his bedtime music, and walked out the door with an "I love you" echoing out of my mouth. As I am about to close the door, what do I hear?

"I oe u". Now that might not mean a whole lot, and I might have been imagining it sounding like "I love you", but that is what I got from it. I was elated. For the first time, I hear those words come out of my toddlers mouth and it made all the depressing days since Little Angel was born (my mom calls it After Baby Blues - it is like how you feel right after Christmas) go away. If only for a little bit (until Little Angel is crying for another feeding).

All I can say is don't put off letting someone know how you feel. People can't read minds. I love you all!

Monday, November 12, 2007

Trains vs. Trucks

Saying that my nephew is obsessed with trains would be an understatement. But he has led me to wonder if Bug will be just as obsessed about something. He doesn't really seem to have any favorites right now, just kind of plays with everything the same. I only have noticed what he seems to enjoy more. Lately he has been pushing around one of his toy trucks a lot. He also really seems to enjoy driving that truck over everything and everyone in the process. I think he likes the challenge of going over the toys and things. We have a truck book for him, and he likes to look through it a lot.

Maybe we'll have a truck enthusiast on our hands...

Saturday, November 10, 2007

First wrestling match

Well, today Bug and Daddy had their first wrestling match. Bug was sadly under matched. That is until he had his handicap of a truck to sabotage Rocket Scientist with.

I just thought I'd share pictures of the match. It was a tough call, but Bug won the match. They had a great time, and Bug was able to use up a lot of his pent up energy. He doesn't really get to wrestle with Mommy very often right now. Hope you enjoy the pictures!

Tuesday, November 6, 2007


Today I found out that I have mastitis (a breast infection). I had a fever yesterday, but I didn't really check myself for more signs of it until today. One of my neighbors knew of my fever last night, seeing as Rocket Scientist needed to go to the store, I wasn't up to it, or watching Bug that whole time. We asked her to tend for a little bit. But I never knew that would lead to what happened today.

She has been doing things for me all day long! She bought me some disposable breast pads, a hand sanitizer, gel breast pads that can go in the fridge, food, and anything else you can think of. She has done some of my laundry. She has been making sure that I rest and eat (which is a hard thing when you feel woosy). She picked up my meditation from Smith's, and has been in and out all day making sure I am doing all right. I still haven't mentioned everything, but I don't want to bore you all to death with all the help she has been.

I have never been catered to so much by someone who is not in my family. Or should I say my mortal family. I owe her so much, she has been a life saver today. Rocket Scientist had to be away almost all day today, and she has been so much help. Though she will probably never read this, I wanted to thank her and everyone who has helped me in times of need. Sometimes it is hard to accept help, but it is needed so others get the chance to serve. Just thought I'd share that. I am feeling better by the way, after only one pill! I hope everything will be better soon.

Oh, and miracles of miracles, I have had Little Angel on the breast this whole day! Not one bottle! We had been struggling with that. Hope all is well with everyone who reads this. Not just my family and friends by the way.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

The simple mind triumphs again!!!

Hurray!!! This is the first post I am doing on my own computer! I started my blog when my computer was almost shot, and I actually started it on Rocket Scientist's computer. Today we found out what was wrong, and now I am posting on my very own computer!!!

I'm enjoying this blogging thing probably for two reasons. I feel like my friends and family will get to know me better, and I am doing it all by myself. I would have never thought that I could make and have a website all to my own, and know how to do things to it. I guess that is why I get a little upset when Rocket Scientist decides (or seems to decide) what is best or the best way to do things regarding my blog. That happened a bit today. I was wanting to put the picture of my new little family that you now see. Only when we posted it, it was too big, and looked funny. Rocket Scientist was at his computer, and I was holding Little Angel. I told Rocket Scientist how I would do it, and he decided that he wanted to do it his way (more complicated). He tried and tried to get it just right, doing it his way. He finally gave up (I think after I mentioned that I feel good when I can do things my way.... probably because Rocket Scientist is such a solver) and did it my way. He only had to do it once, and it worked perfectly. Simple mind TRIUMPHS!!!!!

Next situation.... my computer. Rocket Scientist was trying to get it all fixed throughout the entire day. He finally ran out of ideas, and mentioned something about the two CD drives. I said well, take them out. So he did. Guess what???? My computer turned on!!! Amazing! Simple mind triumphs again!!!!! It turned out that one of the CD drives really had some issues, and at first my computer kept freezing when it was just sitting there with one web browser up. Then it started not turning on, and freezing while booting up with the error "Detecting Array". Whatever that meant. Rocket Scientist tried and tried a bunch of different things, and nothing worked. It was when he said that it was detecting the CD drives but not the Hard Drives. So that was when I said take the CD's off. It was actually the other way around, but like I said, SIMPLE MIND TRIUMPHS AGAIN!!!

Here I go, bragging about my kids

So, what do you think about the new look? I envisioned something like this when I picked this template anyway, and Rocket Scientist helped me with it so it would be just right. Looks more like Oreos!

Bug is really being cute with Little Angel lately. At first he was upset because he was no longer the center of attention, but I think he has moved into the groove nicely. Whenever Little Angel starts fussing because of hunger, Bug runs over to the door of our bedroom (where Little Angel sleeps) and points at him, then comes back to me to let me know he is crying. Sometimes he will grab a book, sit next to Little Angel and "read" the book to Little Angel. He also comes up and pats Little Angel on the head very gently and or kisses him on the head. It is really sweet. Bug is still trying his hardest to get what he wants, and has a hard time obeying, but at least he isn't hostile toward Little Angel.

Hope you enjoyed me prattling on about my sons. Bug really is sweet, and I'm excited that everything is going ok with the new baby.

Thursday, November 1, 2007

What we are doing

Rocket Scientist is going to school, and will be for the next two years at least.

I'm taking it easy, seeing as if I don't I am made to if I push too hard.

Bug is finally starting to seem like he can handle having a new brother. He is kissing Little Angel on the head and patting his head very softly, and all on his own. Of course, he can also get too rambunctious. Sometimes he trys to get Little Angel to grab hold of a toy or something. I can't seem to get him to understand that all Little Angel can do right now is sleep and eat.

Little Angel really isn't doing much, but can you blame him? He went through the same thing I did, and I know that I'm exahusted! He did roll from tummy to back yesterday though. At only a week old?? I'm not sure if it was a fluke or not.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Sure, why not?

So,I thought I'd try out this blog thing. Since my 18 mo. old son (Bug) is napping (pounding on bedroom door), my week old son (Little Angel) is content (nursing...pardon typos), I thought I'd join the band wagon (everyone else is doing it!).

I have never believed myself to be a person who goes to food for comfort.

Until today.

On this "Happy" Halloween, my husband (Rocket Scientist) walked out of here on his way to school looking like... well...... let's just say he likes to dress up like a vampire, and Halloween is really the only day he can without too much raised eyebrows. Back to the story though folks... there was a point on this "Happy" Halloween when Bug was in time out for excessive whining, Little Angel was refusing to latch on despite his hunger pains, and tears were streaming down my face out of frustration at not being able to calm down either of my sons, or myself. I was all alone, trying desperately to be the kind of mother my children need. But I needed help. I turned to the only One who could. About a minute after crying my heart out pleading for help, there was silence in the home. Not only silence, there was peace. I felt it, and I'm sure my dear sons did as well.

Needless to say I still needed something after I put Bug down for his nap. I was quite emotionally drained. I turned to three Oreos, and milk. Then I turned here, and started posting. Hopefully this will be my new outlet, so I can get started on loosing all this baby weight.