Can I have some?

welcome to my blog.

a place to post. a place to eat oreos. a place to vent. a place to heal.

i started this blog so i could use a different outlet besides munching on fattening oreos. as if that has done any good... *mind wanders to oreo package in the house...*

then i realized that oreos can be semi symbolic. if you are are that crazy about oreos that is. which... i am.

eating oreos is therapeutic for me. when i am struggling or when i need a pick me up. they have chocolate. and sugar. both of which help lift my mood. not to mention that i eat them soaked with milk, which is my miracle drink.

i post my posts to not only get stuff out. there may be people who read my blog who have been in the same kind of situations as i have. i hope reading them and knowing that others have gone through things like i have, will be to you what eating oreos does to me.

and yes. i didn't capitalize anything in here. i just felt like it. deal with it.

munch up.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Random & Weird

1. I am a member of TASS. What is TASS you may ask? TASS stands for The Apple Sticker Society (you can understand why we had to keep the T in the acronym). Basically the group is just a group of friends formed in my senior year in high school, and we just made a name to call ourselves something. As for the apple sticker being part of our name, someone in the group always had an apple for lunch, and she would take the sticker off, and put it on the forehead of the person who was "worthy" to have it. Yeah....if that ain't weird, what is? Just a side note, I got nine. I think it was more then anyone else, and I put them on my CD player so I still have them... (oh, I forgot we even have a certificate. I'm not sure if everyone still has theirs, but mine is up on my wall)

2. I started drawing anime characters a couple of days ago. I started with myself, then I drew Rocket Scientist, then a friend on MSN. As for it being random or weird, it was sure random to even me. I just had the sudden desire to try it out, and I did.

3. I am glued to the TV screen when Playhouse Disney is on (even though I have seen the episodes). Even more so then Bug it seems, but then again, he gets more into it when I do too. Especially when Handy Manny comes on. (don't ask me why....I don't even know)

4. After years of hating cinnamon flavored things or hot and spicy things, I am addicted to Atomic Fire Balls. Sometimes it seems like I can't get enough of them. It would seem like being married to Rocket Scientist some things rubbed off on me. Hot cinnamony things, and drawing anime. Maybe I'll even start to like black, probably not.....bleh!

5. Somethings I just have to look at things when I'm at the store even though I don't need them, and I don't even know why. It's like I'm obsessed. Hair things, jewelry (I'm trying to calm this one down more, because whenever I look at it, I need to buy something), socks (you know, the colorful ones), and other things that I can't remember right now. (btw, I'm counting this as only one, even though I'm having a hard time thinking of them.....2 more?? hmmmm, maybe I could do it....)

6. I love the word trebuchet. Don't ask me why. It just sounds cool. (has anyone seen the movie Timeline? They shout "Trebuchet!" before every time that they use it.... so cool!!!)

7. When I was younger I liked to get my dad's screwdriver and take apart my toys and put them back together. My favorite one was the motorized train that would drive on the yellow tracks. Last I remember, it doesn't work anymore (I wonder why.....).

I was "tagged" by Jan to complete this exercise of seven random and weird things, and I'm supposed to tag others (welcome to the blogging version of a chain letter). I tag: Justin, Matthew, Lisa (e-mail me), Amy and CAN(email me too!), and anyone else who feels the desire to be "it".

Thursday, January 24, 2008


So some of you may know that my power supply died last Saturday, and we needed to get a new one. We learned the meaning of "You pay what you get for" (right Can?). Once we found the problem, Rocket Scientist went to his favorite website, New Egg, to find a new one. He ordered the new one, it arrived yesterday, and we installed it today. On the box we found that it said something quite interesting, and I would like your opinions on what it means.

Anyone have any thoughts?

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

New Poll

Hey all! There is a new poll so check it out! (I'm sure you'll love this one Excelente!)

Saturday, January 19, 2008


Yesterday and a couple of days before that I had not so good days. Even two days ago wasn't a good day either. I was really frustrated about it cause I didn't know why I was having down days. I just was. Yesterday was the day of my counseling appointment. She pointed out that for whatever reasons, anniversaries bring out sadness or gladness depending on the anniversaries. I didn't even realize until then that yesterday was the anniversary of Little Angel's funeral. Plus it was "that time of the month" again, and that didn't help things. My sub-conscious was aware of the date, and now that I remember, tried to remind me of it, but I wouldn't let myself think about it for too long.

I guess that I didn't want to be aware of it, but I can't really control my sub-conscious not be aware if it wants to. After I knew the cause of my depression, I was a little more elated. Only because I was so upset for not knowing why I was so down in the first place. I had even turned my emotions off so I couldn't feel anything (for the most part). I didn't even realized how bad I truly looked until Rocket Scientist said that I looked really depressed. I was shocked that he was saying that I was looking really bad, because I didn't feel as bad as he was suggesting from my looks. Thus, my emotions were turned off, or at least turned down.

I hope that any other anniversaries won't be so hard to get over. Now that I know what was cause of that I might be able to get through it better. Anyway, I'm on Rocket Scientist's computer now. My computer died in the middle of writing this. Thank goodness for Google huh? I only lost a sentence! Crazy huh? Rocket Scientist is going to take his apart now and test the parts of my computer. Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks for all of the support that I have gotten from you all all this time. You are all such wonderful people!

Monday, January 14, 2008


Yesterday, we had some neighbors over for dinner and play some games. We had two couples over. After dinner, which was a great success again with the crock-pot lasagna, we played Apples to Apples. We had a really fun time.

One of the neighbors had Bug on their lap while they played. Among the laughing and talking, if you listened really hard you could hear Bug talking. He would occasionally say "umm", "here we go", and other cute phrases. I realized a little bit later that he was copying (or at least doing his best when he couldn't) everything the person who's lap he was sitting on said. She had a little echo, and the cutest one at that. He would also laugh with us, though he had really no idea why we were laughing. It was so cute to hear him copy everything she said down to the umms.

He is starting into the copying stage, and we will have to be careful with what we say now-a-days. Not that we have the worst of language, but I shudder to think of him saying negative things that on occasion I say. Time to get Language Guardian! (as opposed to TV Guardian...)

Tuesday, January 8, 2008


The other day Bug was coloring in a Christmas coloring book. I found it a good way to distract him while we were making dinner. While my back was turned I realized that Bug was repeatedly saying eye. When I realized that I started to turn around while saying something about the fact that he was saying eye. I saw that he was coloring Santa's eye while saying it. He, of course, wasn't within the lines, but he was coloring in the vicinity.

This was the first time that he said eye, and I was suprized and pleased. He has seemed to be taking his time in learning new words, so I am excited that he is doing more and more each day!

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Sunday naps

Bug never gets a nap on Sunday when he is supposed to get it because he usually naps right after lunch. This year he gets to go to church right after his lunch. Usually we put him down for his nap right after church but today we forgot. We were eating and everything seemed fine until around six I noticed that Bug was "bobbing". When kids are falling asleep while eating is just cute and all that, I noticed that today was different. We have him eat in a booster seat and I realized that if he actually bobs his head enough he could either slip out of the seat and fall on the kitchen floor or knock his head pretty bad on the table. If he was in a high chair instead none of these things would be true, but he wasn't.

We just got him out of his bed and it is normally his bed-time at this time. I wonder when we should chance putting him down.....

Saturday, January 5, 2008


I am contemplating on using this program (for lack of a better word) from Google. Here is a link for you to learn about it too ( , but I was just wondering what you would think about it. I don't want to chase readers away with the crazy things I try. Please give me input, I really want to know what you think.

Growing Bug

My little Bug is growing up. We went to Kiddie Kandids today, and here are the latest pictures taken of him. I just can't believe that he looks so different then the last pictures we took of him at Kiddie Kandids. He is just growing so fast and I can't believe that he isn't my little baby anymore. I guess having just had Little Angel die, it hits me more. I was looking so forward to seeing them grow up together. Well, here are the pictures. Here are some pictures that we took at our first sitting. I think Bug was around 18 months because Little Angel was quite young still.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Happy New Year!!!

Happy new year!! May it be a wonderful year for you all.