Can I have some?

welcome to my blog.

a place to post. a place to eat oreos. a place to vent. a place to heal.

i started this blog so i could use a different outlet besides munching on fattening oreos. as if that has done any good... *mind wanders to oreo package in the house...*

then i realized that oreos can be semi symbolic. if you are are that crazy about oreos that is. which... i am.

eating oreos is therapeutic for me. when i am struggling or when i need a pick me up. they have chocolate. and sugar. both of which help lift my mood. not to mention that i eat them soaked with milk, which is my miracle drink.

i post my posts to not only get stuff out. there may be people who read my blog who have been in the same kind of situations as i have. i hope reading them and knowing that others have gone through things like i have, will be to you what eating oreos does to me.

and yes. i didn't capitalize anything in here. i just felt like it. deal with it.

munch up.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Just wanna post I guess

So I have no idea really what this post will be about. I guess I felt the need to update you all after that uh... vexing previous post.

Today was good and productive. Well when it comes to my cross-stitch. I got a lot done on that seeing as today was my hobby day. Then I also had a friend over and we started organizing our card files. If you are a Sidetracked Home Executive and haven't read this book, you must do so. It is a lifesaver.

Anyway (I'm sidetracked can you tell??), I had a friend over and we organized our card files the way they should be and hopefully I'll be able to keep up on it better now.

As for the last post, I was doing better even right after I posted it. Thanks for letting me vex, rant, and rave. I had a great morning then about six my mood slowly but still fast started to go down. Now I'm in the dumps and don't know why. Interesting.... this is called mood swings. I usually don't have them, but this pregnancy seems to have all sorts of surprises in store for me. Once I get the chance I'll take pictures of my cross-stitch and you can see it. It is looking quite well with the sparklyness, and I'll try to get a good focus and all that so you can see the sparklyness.

Anyway, I guess that is all.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Back where I started

If you have been reading this blog for a while or just liked to go through my archives and read the first post, you may remember why I started this blog. If not, you can go look now. Don't worry, I'll wait for you...
Read it? Not yet? Ok I'll wait some more...
*taps fingers on the desk...*
Ok, you got it? Right. Now I'll continue with my post.

Today has been one of those.... uh.... not very fun days. One of those days where you look back at them with.... well more like you don't look back at them because you'd rather forget them. One of THOSE days.

It starts of with me waking up with a headache. NOT a good sign. I HATE it when I wake up with headaches. I roll out of bed, and Bug wants to play with his blocks before we eat, and I'm amazingly Ok with that. I go strait for my computer (also NOT a good sign), and turn it on. Is something wrong with a computer when it takes forever and a day to turn on and log you on? Then doesn't even recognize the mouse so I had to restart again and then turn it off, unplug mouse/plug it back in and wait another forever and a day for it to turn on? Is there something wrong with my computer or is this just "normal"?

Oh, I forgot to mention that while I was laying in bed trying to convince myself to get out, I was feeling those "cramps" again. I also was having kind of disturbing dreams and yadda, yadda, yadda.

Finally got computer on, check a few things and decide it is time for us to eat. We eat breakfast the whole while I'm just overall not feeling good. Every once in a while I'll get a faintness feeling, or my heart will feel like it is rushing but it isn't and I'm just DOG GONE TIRED! The time for band comes along and I'm grumbling to myself. Wishing there were someway for me to get the music to someone so they could find a sub, but knowing it was impossible and that I didn't have a good enough excuse anyway. Throughout the morning hours I am almost constantly thinking how I should shower but I didn't want to I was feeling that crummy. Ok, Ok, I know... squirm in your chair if you wish. That is up to you.

Band comes along and I'm listening to my music to try to get me feeling a little bit better about being in public today, but I never was really successful. In band we are getting ready for a big dance thing in February with a lot of charts and a lot of them are good-old-fashioned-songs-everyone-could-sing-even-if-they-don't-know-the-title-of-the-song type songs. One of which is called "Take the A Train".

The arrangement of "Take the A Train" that we have is one where the trumpet solo has to be played the exact same as the original because it is just THAT good. Everyone loves that solo and if it isn't played that way, people aren't happy about it. It is a cool solo. I had that part and was SOOOOO pumped to play it (notice the word WAS). We sight read it and everything and I didn't play it perfect because I didn't ever play it before, but I knew what it sounded like enough to do a pretty good job.

Why did I go off on that tangent? Well... mainly because of the fact that we got the set list today and were putting our music in the correct order for the gig. "Take the A Train" had been tossed off the list. Don't ask me why. Maybe it was because he didn't want us to play it? Maybe it was because we have a trumpet guy coming to play with us and he would have wanted to play it or told the teacher to toss it for other songs? Who knows? In any case, I'm really pissed about it. I was so pumped to play it. I was going to do a good job and show this teacher just what a good soloist I am (as long as I don't have to make up the solo as I go... hereby called improv). I have an even more dislike for this teacher (that I didn't like much anyway because of the way he teaches) than I had before.

Ok, that has been my day so far. Yeah, not a good day. The whole time my body feels like I'm falling apart as well. In any case. I'm back to where I started. Remember that first post I had you read before I got into this one? Yeah, I got home, grumbled at Rocket Scientist and Bug and put Bug down for his nap. Then I went strait for the Oreos. I'm back to where I started. It has taken me a whole year and a few months to get there, but here I am. Once again drowning my sorrows in a glass of milk and too many Oreos. Well, whatever. At least I'm trying. 60% of the time...

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

One week left

Well here we are. The home stretch. There is one more week until we find out the sex of this baby, so keep your eyes peeled next week. This is also a heads up. You only have one more week to get your votes in! Don't delay!!! It is almost time! Yay! I'm excited, can you tell??

Don't delay! Vote now! ^_^

Monday, January 26, 2009


Ding ding ding! We have a winner! Though I don't think it SHOULD count seeing as he guessed twice, but in any rate, Excelente you won! Give that man a high five! Or I could fly over to Boston to treat you to lunch, but that might be too much. ~_^ Anyway, here is the photoshopped picture.

If you can't see it all that well, click on it, and it will tell you what everything is. He first only started out with eyes, nose and mouth for him and then came over to me all excited saying... "Look! It's Bug!" (only he said his real name, he has been denying his nickname these days... yes you guessed it, it is Bug). I looked over all confused then realized what I was looking at. Then seeing as I wanted to encourage imagination, I went over to sit next to it as I prompted him to add hands. He decided to add the shirt. I was so amazed at his creativeness, I distracted Rocket Scientist from the book he was reading so he could goggle over Bug's inventiveness as well. He didn't seem as impressed as I was though. In any case, there you have it.

Oh, one more thing... after he finished his *cough* self-portrait, he wanted to do me. I suggested to him the holding hands thing, so yes, we are holding hands. After that, he wanted to do Daddy. Then after that, he wanted to do Cat (a neighbor friend who's son is like... best friends with Bug) who so happened to be at our house right then. They started to get pretty squished. I didn't take a picture of all of them, but they were all lined up in a row like these two are as well. We all seem to look pretty identical to him... lol

Fun imaginagions

Yesterday Bug was playing with his Lincoln Logs we got him... I mean uh... Santa gave him for Christmas. This is what he did with them:

Just for fun, I'm wanting to know what my readers think this is. I'll photoshop it and point out what things are and post it later today or maybe tomorrow so you all can have a chance to guess. If you win you'll get...... uh..... a virtual high five. ^_^ Good luck to all!

Friday, January 23, 2009

Potty Progress

So, we really haven't been doing much in the way of potty training. Every once in a while we will put him on but we are usually too late or catch him in a time of un-necessity. We stripped him down for the tub today, and then while I was looking away, he said, "Oooops," and was looking down. I followed his eyes. There were wet dots on the carpet. Not knowing exactly what they were (they very well could have been drips from my shoes, we had just gotten inside from a very wet day outside and he stepped on them...) I asked, "Do you need to go potty?" he agreed almost immediately, and we headed on in, me not even sure if this would even be worthwhile.

After a minute or less of sitting, he said he was done, and it was empty. I figured it was just a false alarm again anyway. I was about to put him in the tub before the water got too cold, but then he said he needed to go. I sighed to myself, and to please him, set him on and left for a little bit. I didn't want to sit on the floor waiting like usual. Eventually, he said he was all done and that he went potty. I was pulled to the computer screen at that point (lame excuse) and was halfway talking to him. Rocket Scientist came in then (from putting out some garbage), and I gave him a quick run down of what I thought was happening in the bathroom. Rocket Scientist then proceeded to say (after he went in there) that Bug had in fact gone potty. I came out of my computer stupor and was way shocked. I went into the bathroom to give a round of fives to help encourage this kind of behavior from now on. I was quite proud of my little Bug.


Hurrah for dates with hubby and no taging along toddler! Ok, so I got back from a date with Rocket Scientist recently, and we had a good time. We ate at Firehosue pizzeria, which I only really suggest to anyone who likes hot food/olives/mushrooms. They are quite plentiful in that respect. Good pizza though, and yummy dessert. I surprised myself by eating 3/4 of a huge salad (about a foot diameter plate), two pieces of a really tasty pizza, three cinnamon sticks (like breadsticks, but cinnamony), AND a huge glass of root beer. I didn't even feel bloated afterward. Well... maybe a little bit, but not like I do at home sometimes.

We finished off the night by going to a used furniture store looking for a new coat stand for our apartment seeing as ours is very much top heavy... WITHOUT coats on it. We also dropped into Borders for a little bit cause it is a favorite store of ours and it was right next to the furniture store.

All in all, a great and fun night away from the little Bug. As cute as he is, even we need a night off. ^_^

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

How are things going?

Ok, I apologize I haven't updated you on how I was doing after my last post. I took it easy all day Sunday, and frankly... I got sick of laying down. I wouldn't have as much probably had I been able to lay on my back, but whatever. The cramps/contractions? got less and less and actually I don't think I felt one single one while Rocket Scientist was at church. I had one little one after he came to check on me, but after that, I don't think there was any execpt for a really small one Monday morning.

Because of this, I got up, showered and ready for band that day not realizing it was a holiday and school was out. I found a babysitter for Bug, and was waiting at the bus stop when someone came by asking if the busses were even running since it was a holiday. I slowly turned around and said, "So... there's no school then, huh?" He smiled and celebrated a little for me telling me to go have a fun day off. I felt silly, but at least he didn't tease or make fun of me. lol

Anyway... I still am not sure what the cramps/contractions? were. I didn't ever have diahrea, but rather, the opposite. I'm trying not to worry about it too much so I don't freak myself out too much and raise my blood pressure.

On a happier note, I felt baby dancing in my belly a night or so ago. I know for sure it was baby, and it wasn't just a little poke. I didn't ever feel it on the outside, but baby was sure doing a little gig in my belly. It felt nice and helped reasure me that everything is going ok. Moving baby in my belly is my favorite part about being pregnant, and the one I miss the very most.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Well, I gone and did it.

I called the on-call OB. Results? I get to take a warm bath today, Rocket Scientist won't let me go to church, and I have two possibilities.

One: My uterus is contracting and the warm bath should calm it down mingled with some Advil, yes Advil, (she said that I was early enough along I would be fine), lots of fluids, and "taking it easy". What does that exactly mean anyway? Bed rest? Can I sit? Whatever... continuing with the post.

Two: I caught a bug and it is in fact my bladder contracting. Result from that would be diarrhea or really soft stools. She said this after I mentioned my extreme nausea I have been having the past few days.

Who knows what will happen from all this. If I don't end up having soft stools or diarrhea I will probably be even more anxious about this baby which wouldn't help my blood pressure which tends to be high for me near the end of pregnancies anyway.

*sigh... taking it easy for me today.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Prego update

Ok, I'll try REALLY hard to make this a happy update, though knowing how I feel right now that might not be possible...

Things are going good by way of growth and all that. I have my next appointment the beginning of February and the ultrasound to find out the sex of the baby and all that. I'm excited.

I think I may have felt baby move too, though I can't be sure. Right now it feels like indigestion to me if it is baby and I can't really tell the difference.

As far as my tummy is going... not so good. The past two days I can't even step in the kitchen for the sight of the food makes me nauseated. Yes, I know, I know... I'm in the second trimester and shouldn't have as big a problem... Well... tell that to my nauseated tummy. All I can eat is my miracle white pepto-bismol (milk), peanuts, and homemade (that's the important part) wheat bread. Now is the time I REALLY wish I had a bread maker. Sure, I could make bread on my own, but that would consist of me staying in the kitchen for X amount of hours to make it. Which would NOT be conducive to my idea of not throwing up.

Ok... that is all the grumble time I am allowing myself.

Ok, so yeah. Pregnancy is going good. The other day I told someone I just met that I was 17 weeks along and she took a double take at my belly. "I thought for sure you were about to say 4 weeks! You look GREAT!" Well... it all depends on the clothes you wear I guess.

And thankfully enough... I have wonderful friends around me that worry so much about how I'm doing. Thank goodness for Cat who so generously gave me most of her newly homemade bread almost fresh from the bread maker and even some butter to put on it seeing as we don't have any butter at the moment. Wait... we have 4 sitcks now! THANKS CAT!!! Oh, and about the milk. Yeah... it really is a miracle. I drink a few swallows and my twisting tummy calms almost immediatly. It just comes right back right when I see food again. *Sigh.

Oh, yeah, I was done complaining. In all reality, we are really excited for this new addition and can't wait to find out what to call her/him. If it is a boy... we have no prospects for names. We have had a girl name picked out since Bug was in the oven so we are set for that. Hmm... I guess I'll have to come up with a blog name for him or her too huh?

Ok, I guess that is all for now. I am now going to be content and eat my wonderful homemade wheat bread with butter and honey and drink my milk. (I am sick of peanuts.)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Chuckle... love this...

I found this on a friends' blog. It made me chuckle and thought some of you would enjoy it too. Maybe it made me chuckle even more due to the recent computer problems Rocket Scientist and I have been experiencing, but I won't prematurely bore you before you read it.

Enjoy! ^_^
For all of us who feel only the deepest love and affection for the way computers have enhanced our lives, read on. At a recent computer expo (COMDEX), Bill Gates reportedly compared the computer industry with the auto industry and stated, "If GM had kept up with technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving $25.00 cars that got 1,000 miles to the gallon."

In response to Bill's comments, General Motors issued a press release stating: If GM had developed technology like Microsoft, we would all be driving cars with the following characteristics (and I just love this part):

1. For no reason whatsoever, your car would crash twice a day.

2. Every time they repainted the lines in the road, you would have to buy a new car.

3.. Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason. You would have to pull to the side of the road, close all of the windows, shut off the car, restart it, and reopen the windows before you could continue. For some reason you would simply accept this.

4. Occasionally, executing a maneuver such as a left turn would cause your car to shut down and refuse to restart, in which case you would have to reinstall the engine.

5. Macintosh would make a car that was powered by the sun, was reliable, five times as fast and twice as easy to drive -- but would run on only five percent of the roads.

6. The oil, water temperature, and alternator warning lights would all be replaced by a single "This Car Has Performed An Illegal Operation" warning light.

7. The airbag system would ask "Are you sure?" before deploying.

8. Occasionally, for no reason whatsoever, your car would lock you out and refuse to let you in until you simultaneously lifted the door handle, turned the key and grabbed hold of the radio antenna.

9. Every time a new car was introduced car buyers would have to learn how to drive all over again because none of the controls would operate in the same manner as the old car.

10. You'd have to press the "Start" button to turn the engine off.

Sunday, January 11, 2009


Well, a few days ago I had another appointment with my doctor. Everything seems to be doing fine. About a week ago I was having pain in my left side for seemingly no reason. Sometimes the pain was so bad I could hardly walk. I didn't go to church last Sunday on account of it. Anyway, so I talked to him about it this week at the appointment. We discussed where and what the pain felt like for a bit and for and unknown reason for me, he even tapped two different parts of my back. It reminded me a little of the way they check reflexes... Anyway, so after we discussed it for a bit, he said I may have just pulled or strained a muscle or something. No reason to fret.

He also at one point asked me what Rocket Scientist and I would like, a boy or a girl. I said girl, we have kind of been hoping for one after we had Bug so we could have the experience of both. He then said, "Ok, it's a girl." I laughed because obviously he couldn't know for sure by just measuring.

So all in all, we are doing fine. We will be finding out if it is a boy or girl Feb. 3rd and you can vote or guess on the new poll I'll put up right now.

As for Bug, he is doing fine, and learning more and more words. Rocket Scientist and I tend to say "gosh!" when something fell over or when we are cleaning up something that tends to fall over a lot. In other words we need to either de-junk our small apartment or organize it. In any case, Bug was just cleaning up one such thing and he kept saying, "gosh!" He is so cute!

I may as well update with Rocket Scientist and I as well too... Rocket Scientist at this point even though school has started is taking a semester off so we can get back on top of our finances among other things. There are somethings he needs to work out with his major too. He has been contemplating changing majors perhaps and by the time summer semester comes along we will be either out of our current apartment or he will be going back to school seeing as we are in student housing and one of us needs to be enrolled. Or both maybe. We are quickly outgrowing this apartment.

Then let's see... me. I'm doing Ok pretty much. Lately Little Angel has been on my mind. I haven't held a little baby since the RS birthday party oh so long ago. Even the thought leaves my heart in pieces and I have to pick them all up again. I hear a baby cry or coo during church and it tears my heart in two again and it is all I can do to keep myself in order. I don't know what will happen when my new little one is born, but every time I think of her or him my heart fills with peace and comfort. I know everything will be Ok. But I still wonder and worry sometimes. Ah well... everything will work out for the best.

And I guess after this long post you deserve some pictures (right Tara?? :p)

Saturday, January 3, 2009

The ultrasounds

Sorry guys this has taken so long to post. I have been extremely forgetful. Here they are in any case.