Can I have some?

welcome to my blog.

a place to post. a place to eat oreos. a place to vent. a place to heal.

i started this blog so i could use a different outlet besides munching on fattening oreos. as if that has done any good... *mind wanders to oreo package in the house...*

then i realized that oreos can be semi symbolic. if you are are that crazy about oreos that is. which... i am.

eating oreos is therapeutic for me. when i am struggling or when i need a pick me up. they have chocolate. and sugar. both of which help lift my mood. not to mention that i eat them soaked with milk, which is my miracle drink.

i post my posts to not only get stuff out. there may be people who read my blog who have been in the same kind of situations as i have. i hope reading them and knowing that others have gone through things like i have, will be to you what eating oreos does to me.

and yes. i didn't capitalize anything in here. i just felt like it. deal with it.

munch up.

Monday, December 31, 2007


Well, the Christmas light poll is done. I'll have the results for anyone interested up for another couple of days, but just 'cause I'm interested, what sort of things would you like me to put up for another poll? Or if you don't want one. Let me know through comments (or e-mail for those who know me) what your opinions are about the poll and what sort of things you would like to have a poll for.


Friday, December 28, 2007

Christmas Greetings

Hello all once again! I know I have been kind of silent for the past little bit, but I wasn't quite sure what to write about. I have a wonderful husband, the cutest little son, and a wonderful family who has been way supportive in this dark time of my life. What more could I ask for? But I have written that already, so I just wasn't sure what to write. Here I go off on a tangent though, I was going to tell you all about my Christmas!

Visiting family like we are, we are not sleeping in our own beds. We spent most of the time with Rocket Scientist's family, and woke up Christmas morning at their house. My family had the opportunity to call my brother on his mission that day and our time that was set apart for it was between nine and ten. So, we woke up really early at Rocket Scientist's parents' and basically forced Bug to open all his presents as fast as he could go. He had a lot! We really would have had a great Christmas without the help from whoever it was who played Santa for us this year. After that we forced down a breakfast as fast as we could go, and rushed out the door without even remembering to take any presents for Bug with us (we were going to stay a couple of days with my family cause Rocket Scientist's family was going to visit his grandparents). We got to my parent's house in enough time to catch the phone call, and were very grateful for that. Bug did fall asleep on the way (the houses are only about 45 min. away...) though, we must have really ruined his beauty sleep.

Bug really had a fun time playing with his cousins that he doesn't get to see very often, and we really had a great Christmas. My sister even called from her long distance from us to make sure I was doing all right. We had a nice conversation and enjoyed being able to talk to each other for a little bit. I really miss her and her family.

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!

Monday, December 17, 2007

Santa came early

As I was waiting tonight for my sister to come by so we could go shopping for a new outfit (thanks so much to my two wonderful sisters!), I was fooling around on the computer waiting for that knock. Eventually I heard a knock, and expected to see her as I opened the door, but found someone I never saw before carrying a big red bag. We had been suprized to find out that the bag was filled with presents for us and for Bug.

I have heard stories of this happening to someone (my brother had this happen for him during a hard Christmas-time in his family), but I just never thought it would happen to us. We are well taken care of and are really grateful for all that we have been given and all the love we have been shown during this hard time.

A big thanks once again for all those who are thinking of us!

Thank yous

In this dark time of my life, with having to be basically on bed rest before the birth, the birth itself, the struggles I have had with breastfeeding, and then the death of my little one, I want to thank you all for being so supportive. I love you all, yes even the ones I don't know. Trust me, I love you all so much, and want the best for you as my spirit brothers and sisters. Being able to write my thoughts down and know that loved ones are reading, understanding, morning, and thinking of me has helped a lot.

So, a big thanks to all you out there who are thinking and praying for us. We can feel your prayers, and love from wherever you are. I just hope that I can repay you all someday. I appreciate everything that you have done, and how much support we have been given. It means so much to know that people are thinking of us and praying. We are doing all right. Don't worry too much about us, because we know that Little Angel is in a better place, and that he is doing the work of the Lord and enjoying every minute of it. Just knowing that makes everything all right. We miss him terribly, but look forward to meeting him again and raising him during the millennium. I only hope that I can be as faithful and be ready when that day comes so I will be able to.

Thank you all once again. I love you all so much!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

If you can't say something nice......

I would ask all of you to not comment negatively. The old saying is still applicable today, "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all". I can also put in here the "Golden Rule" and ask, would you like to be told something like that when you are grieving and trying to find any ray of light?

I am moderating the comments now, though I wish I didn't have too. If you choose to comment negatively, it will not be posted. Please don't, and save me the pain of reading them.

Good and Bad news

Well, I'll give you the bad news first. Little Angel died yesterday of SIDS. We are quite devastated without our little bundle of joy. We are really grateful for our wonderful ward and family who have been a great support to us. We have been really blessed to be in such a wonderful ward and have such wonderful friends who are so willing to help with anything and everything.

Now as for the good news. It is actually kind of bitter/sweet, but I don't like to look at the bitter. I got a rocker! You know those chairs that are rocking chairs but not really cause they are more safe for little fingers? That is what I got! We found it at DI, and it was only $15! They are pretty pricey things, and we got one for only $15!!!!! Another plus, it is in GREAT shape! The only thing that is needing repairs is the fabric. It is way comfortable, and doesn't even squeak! Here is a picture!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Clean home

This will be short, but....

I have a clean living room!!

Bug helped me and Rocket Scientist clean up all the dirty clothes and toys! We can finally walk around without wondering what we are stepping on! If only Bug could help with the dishes...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Little Angel..........scroogeified??

Ok, he really isn't a scrooge, but the rest of us smile for pictures, and it just didn't look right.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Snow flakes

Well, today was the very first day that I saw snow flakes. Don't believe me? Well let me go into my story...

As I started walking home from church today, I noticed right off the bat that it was snowing. Lightly snowing, but snowing nevertheless. Now don't get me wrong, I have seen snow fall from the sky, I am not deprived as that! My mom makes tats the prettiest snowflakes (if any of you reading this don't know me, I pity the fact that you can't see these beautiful things!)!! The closest I can get to explaining what my mom's snowflakes look like are those paper snowflakes that you make by folding up a paper and cutting designs in it.

In any case, I had only known those two kinds of snowflakes. I had never in my life actually seen a snowflake like that. I was shocked when I first walked into the snow today on the way home to see that something that looked like snow, yet shaped like a star was falling on the stroller! I actually had a brief moment when I thought that it must be the scenery people dropping fake snow in my movie. And in a way I guess that just might be true. But only the best artist made those flakes, and the most thoughtful of directors decided to through them out at me today. I even caught one on my tongue I was so excited about them. Rocket Scientist and everyone that I talked to on the way home thought I was crazy I guess, but I had truly and honestly not seen snowflakes. So delicate and beautiful, I was looking at my gloves, coat, stroller, and anything else dark enough to see them the whole way home. Go ahead, call me crazy, but if it weren't for these few times when we really appreciate nature and the beautiful world God made for us, I'm sure I would really go crazy!

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Game Over

I got this in an e-mail today, thought I'd share it with you all. If you can't see the words very well, you can click on it, and it will show you a closer picture.

Even though me and Rocket Scientist aren't there yet, it sure feels like it. We aren't far from it though...

Enjoy!!!! :)

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Bug's cute thing for the day

Bug's cute thing for the day is neat. Mainly because Rocket Scientist was around to see it too, which doesn't normally happen.

When we came back from Thanksgiving break, Bug was fighting having a diaper change still. But eventually, namely in these past couple of days, he would lay down on the changing pad once I had it layed out. It suprized me at first, but then I got used to it. Rocket Scientist was about to change Little Angel's diaper earlier today in the one and only break (much too short in my opinion...), and in getting ready for it, he layed out the changing pad. Soon after, Bug came up and layed down on it. Rocket Scientist had never seen that before, and I hadn't told him about it yet either, so he was stumped. I just asked Bug if he needed a diaper change, and he rubbed his chest (the sign for "please"). That was the first time he had done that, and we both started laughing. Naturally, Rocket Scientist changed Bug first. Too cute!

Monday, December 3, 2007

My fam, elfified

I know, I know, this is my third post today, but I thought I'd share this with everyone (you'll enjoy this I think Exelente!).

Motherhood Tag

1. How long have you been a MOTHER? ~2 1/2 years
2. How many kids call you mommy? ~1 can say it, 1 who is still too young.
3. When you were pregnant did you know what you were having? ~Yes.
4. How old were you when you became a mom? ~20
5. How long were you in labor? ~Around 8 hours with Bug, and around 6 hours with Little Angel.
6. What's your favorite thing about being a mom? ~Enjoying those cute moments like the one I posted earlier. Well, all of them, but mainly the ones that let you know that you are teaching them right, and they are actually learning them.
7. What's your least favorite thing? ~Having those little battles with Bug (he is really trying to test us with his limits), and not knowing how to help Little Angel when he needs something. I hate not knowing what to do when it comes to calming my son down.
8. Do you want more kids? ~Of course!
9. Have you ever taken your kid(s) on a trip? ~We go down to visit our families frequently, but nothing big. We did go to Colorado when I was pregnant with Bug, but since we've had them, the farthest we have gone is Tropic. (down by Bryce Canyon National Park)
10. How many times have you been peed on? ~More than once, but I really don't remember how many
11. How many times have you been barfed on? ~Two stand out, but there might have been more. One went all the way down me since I was standing, and Bug was also bawling cause he just smashed his finger. I wasn't sure what to do, clean up myself and the floor, or calm Bug down (Rocket Scientist was gone at the time). The other one was just into my hands, but I was pregnant and just about barfed myself. Thankfully, Rocket Scientist was around that time to help me.
12. Are your kids named after someone? ~Bug's middle name is after Rocket Scientist's middle name, and Little Angel is the fifth one, so... well you do the math. His first name.....probably not. Little Angel's middle name is Rocket Scientist's first name, naturally after my wonderful hubby. As with Bug, Little Angel's first isn't after anyone we know.
13. When is the last time you had a sitter; What did you do? ~Thanksgiving, we went to Wal-mart...yeah, sad huh?
14. When your kids gets in trouble, who is the bad guy? ~Me I guess. Sometimes Rocket Scientist does, but a lot of the time his disciplining doesn't jive with mine.
15. What is the longest you have been away from your kid(s)? ~A couple of hours. Since Little Angel was born, I've been tied to him, so on the rare occasion we get away, it isn't for very long.
16. Are your toes painted right now? ~Nope, but I didn't do that normally anyway.
17. Last movie you saw in theater? ~I have no idea.
18. One thing you will not give up just because you're a mom: ~Probably handwork. I love to cross-stitch and knit.
19. One thing you did give up now that you're a mom? ~Trumpeting. I really miss performing, but I do ant to find some group I can be in. I really want to be in the Orchestra at Temple Square, but that is still up in the air.
20. Favorite Cartoon: ~Little Einsteins
21. Favorite Snack: ~Fruit Snacks
22. When the kid(s) are napping, you are: ~Either napping too, blogging, or housework.
23. Where is/are your kid(s) now? ~One is in my arms (I'm typing one handed...), the other is following Rocket Scientist around (it was amazing how quickly Bug turned onto a daddy's boy after Little Angel was born).
24. If I could do it over, I'd do this differently: ~ Be more patient, and spend more quality time with Bug. I worried too much about housework and didn't spend enough with Bug.

Now your it!

Today's cute thing of the day

I know I don't write a cute thing Bug did everyday, and thank goodness! You would probably get tired of this blog! But I thought I'd write one (because he does many) cute thing he did today.

Last year my mom gave her children little nativity scenes made my Fisher-Price for the grandkids to play with. Bug wasn't too into it then, and still doesn't really seem to understand the set-up, but today he was playing with some of the characters. An angel and baby Jesus to be precise. While he was playing with them, he touched the angel's face to baby Jesus' face and made a kissing sound. I was startled, but had a heart softening moment. It was way cute. I am suprized frequently at how much he does understand.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Red-Nosed Bug

Bug did this all on his own, and by the time we had batteries in the camera, Bug wasn't doing it any more so Rocket Scientist had to help him get back in the mood. What they are using as a "red nose" is Fisher-Price cupcake frostings. We took a whole lot more pictures that are all way cute. If you want to see them, let me know, and I will invite you to see my web album. So cute!! How do kids think up these things anyway??

Sometimes I just can't believe just how cute Bug is! It is even hard sometimes to be mad at him, or to discipline him. We are trying to teach him that he doesn't always get his way. He had it like that up until we noticed that we were spoiling him a little, and now we are trying to quash it, but he is sure giving a good fight!

Anyway, that isn't the subject of this post, but it is the cuteness of my Red-Nosed Bugerboo. Hope you enjoy the pictures, let me know if you want to see more of them! There really are too many cute ones, I had a hard time narrowing these down. Enjoy! Or don't, it is up to you! :)