I talked to Sandy today. Sandy is my lactation consultant from WIC. We talked about many things that I had questions about, but I won't go into that. The main thing that she did was give me a huge emotional boost. I have been having a hard time getting through each feeding with Little Angel because of the struggles that we have been having. I started to dread when he would need to eat again.
Anyway, before I go off on a tangent (I have done that a lot today...), one thing that Sandy told me today is that 9 out of 10 women would have given up on breastfeeding with all the things we have gone through these last few weeks. She said that she knows that because she has talked to the other nine. Then she said I was her number 10. I have had a better day then I have had since Little Angel was born because I was so elated with her praise. I mean it is one thing to have my sisters or mom say that I'm doing a good job, but with my mind, I can brush that away really easy thinking that they just say that because they love me, or whatever. Sandy is nice, but I doubt that she loves me, and she isn't part of my immediate family, so it is totally different then having my family tell me I'm doing good. I do need the praise from my family, everyone does, but it was easier to brush it off (having a depressing mood and everything) then it was from someone totally unrealated.
So, normally you would think you would want to be number one? I'm just glad that I'm number ten, and all the help I have had from my Father in Heaven and my friends and family who have helped me through this hard time. I hope that it will be getting better and better throughout the next little bit.
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