Little Angel... among other things.

Sorry it has been a while. I haven't had much to talk about.

I started counseling again. I accomplish my assignments by talking to my muse. My counselor is pleased with the results that happen with that.

Despite the amazing month this is in the Mary Kay world, I haven't done much. Well... hardly anything. I have been making lame attempts to accomplish the goals I have. I can't seem to get my feet on the ground. I'm hoping that after I get my roller coaster of depression under control I can do better. That's the plan at least.

My brother got married. I can't believe it. Honestly. It seems crazy that my little brother is old enough to get married. His wife is really sweet. I really like her. :)

Tomorrow is Little Angel's birthday. We will be sending up two balloons up with notes on them. I can't believe it has been two years. Since we have had Squirmy in the home it has been so easy to accept that Little Angel isn't with us anymore. But then again... this day comes up and I remember how much I miss him. Which is healthy. I think. It isn't like I can expect me to just forget him. That will never happen. But at least it isn't overwhelming pain that sends me into numbness anymore. Squirmy has really been a blessing in our home. I don't know if I had mentioned this in here yet, but when Rocket Scientist gave Squirmy his blessing, he said that Squirmy would be a comfort and a healer in our home. Even before Squirmy's blessing, I could feel that. I only had one heartache from looking at him and remembering Little Angel. He really has helped heal my heart. If you want to send up balloons tomorrow as well you are welcome to do so.

Squirmy is growing up so crazily! He rolls pretty well now from tummy to back. He is one of the smilyest babies that I have ever seen. I think he is teething, but his attitude certainly doesn't show it. He is so content most of the time. It is crazy how much he smiles. But I sure love it.

Bug is being an amazing older brother. He'll play with Squirmy, give him his binky when he needs it, and just loves to help. A few things Bug has said recently have been, "Mom, that looks so nice!" I was putting tuna salad stuff on Ritz wheat crackers. Every once in a while he'll just come up to me, climb into my lap, give me a hug and say, "I love you!" When he bonks me, or Squirmy he'll say "Sorry!" almost immediately afterward. One day he asked for "green milk". He wanted the 1% milk which has a green lid and label. I thought I'd be clever and put a few drops of food coloring in the bottom of his cup. Then the phrase, "How'd he do that???" came up. That was mainly after Rocket Scientist changed his milk red. He is just such the cutest little guy, and I hate how his innocence could be shattered one day from some evil of this world.

I guess that is about it. Rocket Scientist is doing good. He is completely healed from the Swineness, and I'm doing ok. I think I have charly horses in both of my calves. But we are doing ok. I have found some new ways to help me calm my depressing times. One is to write. Another is to remember the Pixar short, Boundin'. It is the perfect thing actually. It is amazing how that simple message could help me so much. It it said so simply and yet it is a very strong message too. If you haven't seen it yet, look for it. It is the short that came with the movie, Incredibles.

So yeah. G'night.